How have you guys been? It’s been a while since my last blog entry and I do apologize for lack of it. This is mainly because I got swamped with work PLUS the tons of other things I needed to finish that I basically had no time (and even inspiration!) to write. Today, however, the hiatus ends and I finally have my first official blog entry for the year 2019! YES!
This one is not the usual “sponsored content“ or a “product review” but basically just something personal that I wanted to share.
I am writing today because I WAS INSPIRED to write. My inspiration? Visiting my Alma Mater, the University of Santo Tomas.
TFor those of you who don’t know, I finished College at the University of Santo Tomas (UST) taking up BS Nursing during the year 2011. I passed the June 2011 licensure exam for nurses and I haven’t been to UST since.
Common questions I receive is that “Why are you a Flight Attendant if you’re a Nursing graduate?” – read on to find out the answer.
I actually didn’t like Nursing. I wanted to be a High School teacher but my parents insisted that I take up Nursing (I was forced haha). They had tons of reasons for wanting me take up this course but basically it was because Nursing had a promise of a better life, a greener pasteur as they say (or back then it used to have). I agreed to it because thats what high school kids are supposed to do.. listen to their parents.
Studying nursing was an uphill battle especially in UST where it’s the center of excellence (meaning it’s the schools’ expertise). I remember the times where I got myself wounded by trying to open a medicine ampule or when I panicked because I simply couldn’t “deliver” a baby properly. I am good in theories thats why I got in UST Nursing but I’m so bad in application.
My hands are also extremely uncoordinated that I couldn’t properly execute tasks that needed fine motor skills (example: Injecting Vaccines, Medicine Preparation) which is the core of Nursing. My classmates (Duty-mates) would laugh seeing how nervous I get and how “nanginginig” my hands were when doing Nursing skills. Even patients complain that they feel unsafe with my unreliability. To be honest, half of the time I really didn’t know what I was doing. It was a miracle I graduated.
I wasn’t the best “student nurse” not just because of my lack of fine motor coordination but because clearly my heart wasn’t in it. I still finished Nursing though because I wanted to do my parents proud and I passed the board exams because I wanted to do my university proud. But by second year in college (during OB rotation where we deliver babies), I knew that Nursing wasn’t for me.
I dreamt of graduating College and then simply working for a BPO/Call Center Company on a nightshift because I am used to staying up late (I’m not a morning person so 8am-5pm shifts is difficult for me). However after graduation, my parents suggested that I apply as a Cabin Crew/Flight attendant (Apparently, the job requires one to be a college graduate but doesn’t require any specific course, therefore any 4-year course will do). I really didn’t know what’s next for me but it was clear to me that I will not be a nurse (I don’t want to get my patients killed!).
I applied for Philippine Airlines and it took me three tries to get hired (I failed the interview in my first 2 attempts). The interview process were so strict and the training was even harder. I barely graduated training back in 2012 but I did it, I graduated (BUT NOT IN FLYING COLORS).
Visiting my previous Alma Mater made me realize how far I’ve come today. The University looked the same (with some improvements nonetheless) and I knew I was home. I revisited some of the places I used to hang at and I found myself crying.
This impromptu visit has made me realize that from a simple student who couldn’t administer a vaccine to a child, I am now someone who’s been working in an airline for 7 years traveling the world. NEVER have I expected my life to turn out this way and I have never appreciated that it did.
YES, revisiting my roots has made me see that my LIFE HAS COME FULL CIRCLE and for that, I am so thankful.
Just like what happened to me, we can all get so caught up by our “day to day” that we forget to look back and see how far we’ve come. With all the goals and hustle we do, it is good to take a step back and appreciate the road that has been to where life has brought us today.
I look at the students at UST and find myself saying “Damn, I’m Old!” but old in a good way. As a 90’s baby, I am now at a crossroad where I am no longer “young” but don’t want to be counted as “old” yet. My goal back then is that by 30, I should be the most successful, I should be very rich and that I should be on top of the world.. but none of it came true. Well, not in the way I envisioned it to be at least.
We get pressured because a lot of people are seemingly doing “better” in life and that we are being left way behind. In my social media feed, I see people getting engaged, I see my high school batch-mates having kids and friends getting married. But not being in that stage in life is truly alright.
So to all the 90’s babies, you are not alone. We are facing this and all we have to do is embrace it. We shouldn’t let it pressure us but instead, continue to keep winning in life AT OUR OWN PACE. Your pace might be slower but it doesn’t mean it is of less value.
Where you are today might not be YOUR PLAN but trust in GOD’S PLAN. He will get you to where you are supposed to be. You are struggling now yes, but that is part of something BIGGER!
I graduated Nursing with no concrete plans but I know God has placed me exactly where I am supposed to be. I am sure he has plans for you too. Believe it!